Dechan, you might garner some benefit from this article I found on Psychology Today. Or rather, the link was shared to me by another member. It's about learning to let go of the past hurts and to move on with your life in a healthy and positive manner.

Learning to Let Go of Past Hurts: 5 Ways to Move On | World of Psychology

Holding onto the pain doesn't do you any good, it only hurts you further. I followed these steps and boy howdy did I find a sense of peace. It felt like I finally got closure from that painful chapter in my life, and now I can finally move onto the next exciting one. I hope it helps you as much as it helped me.