I used to have nightmares like that constantly, especially back in high school. I was being physically attacked and picked on back then, so that stress probably contributed to the nightmares. In the nightmares, people were always trying to kill me. My weapons often failed and I'd have to run until I could find another, or use my bare hands to kill people. My knives were dull and it took a lot to kill my enemies. Definitely disturbing, especially when they were family or friends.
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Originally Posted by Pastel Kitten
Does this point towards my subconscious fear of people turning against me and me frantically trying to gain some control over the situation as a result, or am I nuts??
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I think this is very perceptive and I think that it's a good assessment. Hmm, yes, the paranoia and fear of everything and everyone being dangerous, being a threat. There is no doubt that we see the world very differently from those who don't have BPD. Our minds are definitely hyperactive in that regard.