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Originally Posted by kamikazebaby
I used to have nightmares like that constantly, especially back in high school. I was being physically attacked and picked on back then, so that stress probably contributed to the nightmares. In the nightmares, people were always trying to kill me. My weapons often failed and I'd have to run until I could find another, or use my bare hands to kill people. My knives were dull and it took a lot to kill my enemies. Definitely disturbing, especially when they were family or friends.
I think this is very perceptive and I think that it's a good assessment. Hmm, yes, the paranoia and fear of everything and everyone being dangerous, being a threat. There is no doubt that we see the world very differently from those who don't have BPD. Our minds are definitely hyperactive in that regard.
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Wow, your dreams are definitely very similar to the ones I had indeed. I left out a few gory details because I honestly thought they were far too disturbing to post about, so I can relate to what you mean about the killing methods being highly disturbing. I'm glad to know I'm not alone in this regard because I was afraid these dreams had some other bizarre meaning to them, back then. It all makes a lot more sense now. We are not psycho, we are just very, very perceptive and hyper aware of peoples' intentions - whether imagined or not.
On a side note: I've already begun doubting a good friend of mine because he hasn't been online for 5 days, which is not like him at all. My first thought was that he may have switched to a different skype account because he didn't want to talk to me anymore, but didn't have the guts to actually remove me. I can't shake the feeling even now.
