Many of my break ups were a push and pull on my part. When I was the 'dumper' rather than the 'dumpee', I'd back off, then try again, until it got too crazy or ended with a Restraining Order.
Now we're going into the weekend again. For the past three Friday's, I have already started getting anxiety attacks and crying in the morning. I'm working myself up again, just knowing I am going to have to deal with this.
Again, push/pull, thinking maybe I should initiate doing something fun with him that we used to enjoy, driving somewhere. Otherwise, what am I going to do all weekend? Sit here in my room while he sits in the other? Run away again?
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. About Me--T
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