I have major depressive disorder
I have Adult ADD which is generally not a bothersome issue
I have PTSD from rape trauma which has resulted in Conversion Disorder w seizures due to repressed memory syndrome the above mentioned PTSD
I am dependent on pain medication due a spinal fracture that occurred when I was 21 way back in Dec of 2000...I had to have spinal reconstruction in Dec of 2000 and Dec of 2002...I was off all narcotics for 4 yrs until I became pregnant with my son in2006 and the pregnancy caused my fusal to come apart and the pain started all over again and since March of 2007 I have had to have some kind of pain medicine on 75% or more of the time to feel ok enough to move and feel human
I DO realize pain and depression only feed each other and make the other worse
I have generalized anxiety disorder
I am a recovering "unlicensed pharmaceutical chemist" to say it in um.....nice terms....and a recovering meth addict....in other words I was breaking bad before "Breaking Bad" was ever thought of in some hot shot hollywood writers head.....
I don't like people in general...they are rude and thoughtless and downright selfish these days...I miss the way things "ought" to be....the way things were when I was a kid and Reagan was president...Dirty Harry Callahan was a freakin HERO...and "He needed killin" was a valid defense against murder in an American court of law
I have too much self worth....enough that it has destroyed my relationships because I will no longer lower myself by telling somebody what they wanna hear or believe simply because I love them and I cant live without that person,,,,I know who I am and what the truth about my life is and what other people choose to think is beyond my control,,no matter how much I love him...






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