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Originally Posted by lucidity11
I haven't been to therapy in over a year, I think, anyway, I am reluctant to engage my parts like I did when in therapy. It sort of like how we were before we knew. We are aware of us so it makes it easier to communicate without thinking we are nuts but I feel afraid to fully acknowledge us as parts. I am concerned that we might become dysfunctional in the world. We may be getting a new job and we need to be how we have been in the past. We need the worker parts to go to work. That used to happen automatically. But recently that hasn't been the case. In fact the worker parts don't really want to go to work. But we need the money. I don't see us working for a long time just for a few months. Unless the workers like the new job. Than maybe they won't mind going to work. I don't know. I keep thinking if we start thinking of ourselves as a system with many parts we will get lost again. There will be no order and everyone will be coming and going. I don't want parts to think they shouldn't be able to express themselves but I also don't want us to be seen. And too much switching out loud will cause trouble. If we get this job we will really need to decide if we are willing to work or not. And if we are willing to work that the parts who are the ones who go to work will need to focus and get the job done. That is what I think
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Bobbie: Hi hon, working/existing is always an adventure with this thing. I just started working for an employer, the first time in 6 years for we've always been self-employed and worked alone.
Our system always finds it difficult starting new things, but when we do, it's like why did we not do this earlier? We always spend a lot of fear over what turns out to be nothing.
We have no choice but to switch to deal with things, but being co-con, we are able to monitor what's happening and remind the one present that it's in public viewing and to get back with the public image. Sometimes when we are triggered out, we try jumping back in so as to hide ourselves. Of course, we are always accepted as a single person, but quirky, lol.
Are you able to communicate with your others? We here discuss, vote, and help each other through the day doing our thing and contributing. We've decided to do what's best for the body (system) which will be for us.
We too want to stay hidden, to appear as a normal singleton, but history shows that that's impossible for us and we've finally came around to accepting that, so we now work on the embaraasment factor.... trying to keep that level as low as possible! Lol
Lucky for us, we go to the office and they hand us a work order, and we go work by ourselves. How cool is that!?!!
Anyways, good luck on your job hunt and I hope that you all can work together.
