Hello T,

I'm home again. I'm crying. We talked a bit about the email, but only about my anxiety for a new therapist.
You didn't mentioned anything about my anger towards you, my anger about how/when you told me your stupid news, me feeling like **** while you're happy at home with your boyfriend and daughter, me not wanting to see you, me not able to be looking at you, me feeling abbandoned by you, about T's not caring about their clients, we clients are just a job for T's, about that I didn't choose to be left by you after a year of therapy and having to go to a new T, that I think it's so unfair.
Why didn't you said anything about that? I was afraid to start about it. It was already hard enough to write it in an email to you, to let you know about these feeling. We had already talked about my anxiety for a new T. That's the less hardest topic to talk about. It are the other things I wrote that I was afraid about to share with you.

Now I'm at home crying. I'm feeling so anxious and lonely. I just hate this situation. I didn't choose this when I asked you to be my T again This is so unfair. It doesn't really bother you, because I'm just your job. You try to do your job right, but still, I'm only a job to you. That's why I'm feeling terrible. And you, at the end of the day you go home to your happy life.

I feel anger, but when I'm in session I'm so afraid to express that.

I don't know what to do. I really don't. All I want is to hear you say you care about me, offer me a hug, send me a check-in email. But you won't do that. Because you're the T and I'm just one of many clients.

I'm at loss.