I'm so depressed I don't care about anything. I'm unemployed so I have no reason to get out of bed. I can't find a single reason to get up in the morning, I only do so because I have to go pee. Then the day starts and I'm filled with absolute dread at the thought of having to survive until I can go to sleep again. Since I don't have to leave the house I try to structure my days with productive tasks but I'm struggling to find a reason to do them. I have an eating disorder and it takes all the willpower I can muster to not binge on junk food all day. But why shouldn't I binge all day? I have several affirmations that I'm supposed to repeat to myself, such as "I love myself and my body, so I feed it nourishing foods" but the truth is I don't love myself or my body. I don't care about health at the moment. It all seems meaningless. I don't want a better life. I don't want to better myself. I don't even want to live. How do I get back to caring about myself and my life? I have no one, no relatives or friends that would benefit from a better version of me either. No one cares. I try to care about myself, I just can't find a reason to do anything. Please help me, my eating disorder is killing me and I need to find a reason to at least try to eat healthy. How do you all get back to taking care of yourself when you just couldn't care less about anything at all?