Oh ((DesigningWoman)) how wonderful that you have been seeing a T that is so available like that. People who have no understanding of PTSD can't understand how much of a challenge it really is, how out of touch one feels with themself and it's actually scarey. It's definitely such a comfort to be able to spend time with someone who is understanding and knowledgable and patient.

I can understand how not having that individual that one gets so used to grounding them can be stressful. However, it's also important you do have some time outs so you can realize how you have improved in managing by yourself and thinking about the skills you have been learning as well as the supportive things your therapist has said to you. Also, a time out gives one a chance to notice their weak areas and what I did was use that time to come up with questions for when I was able to see my T again.

Part of the recovery/healing/gaining on managing is in practicing and doing because that is how we learn ((DW)). Trauma does take something and it can take time to figure out what is taken and then work towards rebuilding.

Good for you that you have been managing so far, not much time left before you can resume therapy and perhaps talk about whatever areas you struggled with while on your own.