You're right Pink. I have gone from angry to now completely falling apart and crying at my desk. This is a new job and I don't want them to see me this way.

I have shut my door. Deep down, I am not mad at him, I love how he is being there for me. I'll try to tell him something tonight but I'm afraid I'll fall apart.

I will not be mean to him, he has done too much to try and help me.

His voice mail wasn't that bad, he just didn't say 'I hope everything is okay'...or something like that.

My T isn't your T. He won't respond like yours does. I wish he would sometimes. Sometimes I don't have the coping mechanism to handle this myself.

After last session, I should've asked him if we could talk before this week. I was so overwhelmed, I just kind of left.

Isn't it okay to need more sometimes? It is so hard for me to ask him for anything and when I do, it turns out like this for me.

Thanks for responding and I hope I haven't triggered you any.