There have been many times in which I have closed the door to my office to cry. Usually it is in repsonse to depression. Lately, it is mixed with missing T.

I have only cried at my internship once but it was after running a group therapy session and I was with another therapist processing what had gone on in the group... and my empathy for a particular person in the group turned into tears. I was saying, "She is just so depressed and in so much pain....." and all of a sudden the tears just started coming. It was obvious that I was going to cry... I managed to get a hold of myself and blink back the tears before they started to roll down.

I hate crying in front of people. Some people feel comfortable with that. My sister-- she will cry in front of anyone who will listen. I only feel comfortable crying in front of my husband. In two years with my T I have technically cried twice. On one occasion, this involved one single tear rolling down my cheek. There was no sound, no movement, nothing. Just a tear. The second time I cried a bit more openly, but still no tissues had to be involved. I refuse to get to the point in which a tissue would be invovled.

Oh yeah and once I was in such a deep depression during a school semester that my eyes kept filling up with tears during the lecture and I had to use all my energy to concentrate on not crying rather than on what the professor was saying.

I also have a terrible habit of crying while driving. It often happens after therapy since I resist the tears when I'm with him. Happens on the way to work a lot, too.