I do see where you are coming from Ocean Swimmer, as I have a hard time doing for and being there for others. Yet, It's in my nature to be there for others, even though Im bipolar. Some days are better then others, sure. Yet over all? Helping others makes me feel good on the inside. And I don't get enough of that on my own.

TishaBuv: I can give you two for instances. Hopefully that can shed some light on things. I have this one friend who isn't bipolar. She has her moments of depression and family issues. Yet, when it came to her needing a friend to be there to talk to, or simply someone to listen? I was always there for her. When the shoe was on the other foot however? I got a lot more closed doors there then the alternative. I even brought up to her once. Said, there have been many times I actually needed a friend, where I should not have been alone. Yet, the few times I attempted to reach out to you you ignored me, or would give me short answers which only fell into silence. The reply I got from that was, I'm sorry.
The other thing is, I created a post online on Craigslist seeking friendship only. My ad was up for over 4 months. Sure, I met quite a few people. Yet, each and every person, save one, has stopped all communication with me. I've thought maybe it's because I write to much, which, guilty as charged. What can I say? I like to write.
Yet, even when I've kept it short? It's the same thing every time. Granted, I only mentioned in my ad that I suffer from agoraphobia and have a hard time leaving my home at times. Yet, I don't think that was the cause or why contact me in the first place? Maybe it's because I'm to honest and up front with people. I'm only grasping at straws at this point, I just dont know what it is.