Honestly I would much rather stay in and never look at the outside world. I love much more inside. I don't know. It's like my system has made this amazing world where there are no problems and where they are just humans.. I don't know is that even DID am I doubting everything again? I have no clue what is going down to be honest I am so lost, so down, full of depression and uselessness.. I don't know, is that normal? Am I really going insane? I want my psychologist.. why is mental health not free?