T,

About what you said last session. Staying stable/solid/constant for those 5 months with a new T is NOT enough for me! I didn't start therapy again to go from feeling hopeless close to death to feeling like **** and then stay ''stable'', so stay feeling like ****, for 5 months. I started therapy again because I was feeling terrible depressed and I was at a loss. I wanted to feel better. And eventhough it goes really really slow, it better than no progress at all.
You say that getting to know a new T, talking to her, experiencing that there are more T's who can be good for me is already a huge step. And if it is enough to just experience that, focus on that and focus on staying stable for those 5 months.
It's not enough! I still feel like ****. And that's not good. And if I pass those exams (which you knew long ago were coming and causing huge anxiety and for which you won't be there to support me), then I could start college. And college start at the beginning of September. And that's 5 months from the day you are leaving me.
So NO! Staying stable isn't enough! You ****ing *****! You can talk easy. You don't know how it is to feel like this. I ****ing hate you right now!
You're leaving me during a time I need you the most. And yes, you help me with that new T, but how can I trust her? How can I feel comfortable around her? That doesn't happen so soon. If it happens at all. So basically I will be/feel alone during a really difficult time for me.
Thank you, T.