I have just been recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I just started my new meds Monday. I have started taking a mood stabilizer & anti anxiety med & my psych doc has lowered my Effexor from 75 mg to 37.5 mg. it's been a tough week for me. Ever since I was diagnosed I have been having a hard time accepting that I'm bipolar. I don't want to feel this way!! I hate being this way!! I hate having these mood swings!! My anxiety has been horrible here lately! I had horrible panick attacks all through the day Wednesday. I just hate how manicy I can be!! How do I accept this? I just want to stop hating myself & start feeling better.