Yea now I'm reminded why I don't tell family and why I've lost all my friends. Honestly her reaction made me jealous of her! The way she thought my issues were no big deal. Why can't I see them that way? Why can't I just brush it off and move on like her? We also talked about laughter. How she loves those deep, from your stomach laughs. I haven't been able to laugh like that in years. You'd be lucky to get a giggle out of me. She talked of her boyfriends and girlfriends and all the fun they have together. It made me sad. And very jealous. When was I robbed of these emotions? What took them away? When did I actually "snap" and lose it? Most of all, why am I so messed up and her so normal? And then it made me sad that this bright young sister of mine will never understand my pain. I won't be able to call her up and talk to her about the ***** at work that made me cry, or how I wanted to [trigger] cut today. She'll never understand. And I'll never share her laughter.

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