I have been on Lithium 750 mg for a few months.
At first, it was a miracle. I was the happiest & most stable I'd been ever.
Then, a few weeks ago I started having anxiety, panic attacks, sadness...(mixed episode?) that lasted over a week straight. It was AWFUL.
Now I am depressed with suicidal ideation again.

I'm so sad b/c I thought I'd found a way to live a somewhat normal life.

I increased to 900mg a week ago & it doesn't seem to help.
From what I've researched, rapid cycling BP 2 with anxiety is one of the more difficult to treat with meds.
The ones that do cause major weight gain & I am TERRIFIED of weight gain.

I hate this disease, I hate that I have this. I'm tired of fighting this.

Sorry to unload but I know that you all get it. You feel my pain. You know the frustration. The hopelessness.
What to do next?