((((hugs))) Please don't go with that in your mind (it won't be a good session.) Go with, I'm going to get something out of tonight's session!

Ts are usually very careful about what they say on a voice mail, they don't wish to compromise you in case someone else hears it. They still care, though, most of them. If not, a T wouldn't bother to call you.

You appear to be working through this, and what you wish you had done, and that might help you remember the next time, so it's better. This is all part of therapy too (((hugs))) imo.

Give your T the benefit of the doubt, but surely discuss it with him... he needs the feedback to better help you cope all the time.