For me, before I was on meds, I was constantly switching from up to down. Both the ups and downs were extreme. Now that I've been on meds for a few years, not much has changed. I still have ups, but not the full of energy ups and I miss it tremendously. I still have downs as well, and just as dark as before, but perhaps a little shorter in length. My paranoia is getting worse.

Basically, meds haven't had much affect on me, at least from my perspective, except slow me down which I absolutely hate with a passion.

In a nutshell, for me it's living in Hell On Earth, trapped, and no where to hide from it. It's like I've been cursed my whole life. Very little good ever seems to happen for me. I will never go any further which wasn't far to start with. I always hoovered slightly above poverty income jobs because after a couple of good years with raises and promotions, I always screwed up and got fired. Then I would have to take whatever offered me a job just to keep food on the table. I could go on and on, but by now I'm sure you get the point. Yep, it's pretty much living in hell.

Be very thankful that you do not have it.