We just had it out. I told him to cancel the dinner plans. I told him he only knows how to make me feel like I am cornered and up against a wall or begging for love.

I just want to curl up in the fetal position and go back to bed now.

We are two people who are saying we want to love each other, but are just not allowing ourselves and each other any joy.

I am so numb.

Is this all because I have a MI?

I am so dumb.

So many women long for a man to give them any attention. I should kiss his *****, but I just can't fake it anymore.