Dear T, I am so grateful that you said you don't think that even if I started going out more and meeting more people and making my life busier that I would just automatically feel better. That has been one of my biggest fears, that I have wasted so many years of my life NOT doing anything to my life...and if i just un-isolate myself some, *poof* I will be all better.

That fear and self-hatred has kept me from trying it, but hearing you say that all of my underlying feelings would still be there was a relief. Maybe I can try and let go of that fear a tiny bit...i don't know, but it was nice hearing you say that, so thank you.