Hi angryworld,

I think a lot of people in your positon are going to understand the bad decision making bit for one reason or another e.g. sometimes depression brings with it ""tunnel vision", your perspectives on things will change, the "world and people in it look different", sometimes you make any decision because it's just too much to think to much about alternatives, you're lacking the emotional investment in decision making or you just can't bring yourself to really think/care about the consequences........lots of possible reasons.......and if only the depression wasn't there you'd maybe make some very different decisions
So, yes, to me some bad decisions are totally understandable when you're being lead or encompassed by depression
As for the doctors though........if you feel they don't understand..........is there an option of changing doctors or requesting different ones??? Or even challenging more what they say??? Perhaps you could get them to justify their opinions a little more, or/and give them more evidence/examples to get your point of view across??? Maybe there's someone you could take with you to help you get your point of view across???

As for the Government........I'm afraid I'm not from the US, so less familiar with the systems..........but perhaps if you can make some breakthrough's in doctors taking things more seriously that can filter up via your records to where it needs to go???
And I don't know if there would be any patient advocacy (???) groups/charities who might be able to help???

Just some thoughts.............and I'm really sorry for the difficulties you seem to be having

Alison