Not me. I don't like now knowing people I run into. I don't like not remembering things that I was taught or things I did or places I went. I don't like not being able to tell my thoughts in my head from reality. I don't like feeling like I am not fully experiencing my life in the world because feelings are in parts and not in a single place. I don't like not being able to be in the moment. I don't like the distance between me and people I care about because of memories I don't recall. Yes I am grateful for my system saving me from death or emotional decimation. But I would like to be able to remember, feel the pain, remember the abuse and move past it. Move into the present. I want to stop being afraid.