Hello,
I am confused and frustrated. I have been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, panic disorder, PTSD, a somotaform disorder and phobia disorder... To be specific health anxiety/phobia. I've seen a lot of bad things in my short 26 year old life involving bad health and death. My grandma, dad and fiancé all battled cancer. My grandma had it under control and then died from respiratory failure. My dad beat 2 types of cancer but suffered greatly from the effects and died from congestive heart failure that went undetected. My fiancé died from his second battle with cancer.

Now, I am afraid of disease and dying. Now that I no longer have everyday anxiety about something happening to them, there should no longer be a dark cloud looming over me, I feel it worse than ever. A good amount of time has passed and I have moved on with a good man and should be happy but I'm not. I feel terrible all of the time.

It started when I lost my house in October. I have felt terrible ever single day since. It's almost always different symptoms each day that rotate. One day it will be chest pain, another day it will be a stomach ache and bloating, others it will be my ears are sensitive and hurt, etc. Its a vicious cycle and they always come back.

What I have been feeling most recently is weakness. My muscles feel weak or fatigued. I don't want to get out of bed or go do anything because I feel like I'm going to fall over. I can't enjoy anything because I am so worried that there is something seriously wrong with me even though the doctors say it's anxiety.

Now my mom and boyfriend think I have depression, but it's hard for me to believe that because I don't feel sad. I don't cry, I don't want to cry. The only real emotion that I feel is fear. However, I do see that I am having a hard time enjoying my life. I don't want to sit and do nothing but there isn't anything I really want to do and if there is something I want to do I feel like I can't.

Does anybody else feel this way? For some reason it's easier for me to believe a person who has been where I am than a doctor.