Why did you walk out of your therapist office? Maybe try another therapist. It's hard to find a good therapist nowadays.

As the other poster mentioned, you should reach out to someone in real life. Feel free to private message me about anything.

Although you may not care about your family, they care about you. I care about you, people on this forum care about you otherwise they wouldn't be responding to your posts, the world cares about you.

The concept of God, Love, or happiness can be generally uniquely described as feeling connected. What creates an imbalance is when the body and the brain is disconnected. It's when the part of us that disconnects from the world, our family, and loved ones that makes our suffering inevitable.