It's been years since I've still been awake at 4:54 am! I'm wide awake with no hope of catching any z's! My sky is literally falling, er... well... my tin can is! That's my mobile. First, a portion of the deck and the railing that goes with it is rotten and the railing fell off. The plywood on the floor is peeling off in layers so it's cordoned off so no one walks on it. Second, this year I decided to get the furnace fixed because I'm tired of getting up to turn the oven off and on plus the danger of heating the space with it has been in the back of my mind. The heater worked for two days. Third, the water heater sprung a river yesterday sometime but I didn't realize something was wrong until about 2 pm when I was getting ready to take a shower. Fourth, about four hours later, I saw that the wall the sink is on was pulling away from the frame. Fifth, later in the evening I heard something fall and it was a piece of the ceiling above the wall that's falling.

Before today, I was thinking of replacing the furnace. To replace it with one like it would cost $3300. To replace the water heater it's going to cost over $700. I have no clue what it's going to cost to fix the wall and ceiling in the bathroom. No doubt there is more water damage on the floor of the mobile. There was already some there when I moved in, probably for the water heater. It's been modified.

When I was having my kitchen remodeled, one of the top cabinet doors fell off and made a huge hole in the floor. If pressboard can do that to a plywood floor, what does that say about the floor? Taking into consideration that this mobile is 40 yrs old, it's not good.

The windows are the kind you roll out and the screens, what screens exist, are on the inside, not to outside. All of the windows whistle when the wind blows and everything gets covered with fine but gritty dust.

The first rain after I moved in five years ago left water stains on the ceiling of the bedroom. I need a new roof that at the very least, will cost $1000.

I know that if the State came to inspect, they'd condemn this tin can and make me move out.

The only thing going for this space is the front and back yard, although they're getting weedy since hubby's been trapsing across the countryside.

I've sent him four emails in the last two days and none of them were answered, so... I logged on to his account and didn't see any of my emails. I assumed he'd read them and ignored them. Then today I saw an email from my daughter to him that was there yesterday. Decided to check his spam folder just in case. Sure enough! All of my emails were in his spam folder... and I had taken his head off in the next to the last email! So I promptly apologized and told him what had happened to his emails. I signed off by asking him when he was coming home. He hadn't planned on heading this way until Thanksgiving. That's another WHOLE MONTH!! Nah... that's not going to work. Or... I'll be gone from here when he gets back.

It's now after 5 am, the plumber is supposed to come in three hours and I'm not sure it's worth replacing the water heater. I have to heat up water to wash my hair and give myself a PTA bath, then it's party time! My grandson's birthday party is tomorrow at 2 pm. Block party. Combination birthday/Halloween festivities. My ex is going to be there and it will be the first time I see him after his mom died, whom I loved dearly, and he didn't let me know. There's no way I'm going to create a scene but there's nothing I'd love better than to set his fat *** bouncing down the street! I don't know if my youngest son will be there, but I'll have my granddaughter's hand made fairie costume with me! Even if the youngest is there, I don't expect any support from him as far as my ex is concerned. No, my ex isn't his father, THANK GOD, but he is my oldest son's father. (The birthday boy's father)

<font color="red">CRAPOLA!!!</font> Never mind what I'm REALLY thinking!!

Anybody got any suggestions?

Sorry my rant was so long, but I had to spill it. No lightbulb moments, either.