T,

I'm thinking about canceling my next session. I know it's still 5 days away. I feel like I should cancel. But to cancel next session means one less time to see you before you leave me. But I also just don't want to see you. Ugh.
The only thing on my mind is your leaving. All the stuff I need to work on has moved to the background. I can't talk about other stuff to you, in my mind I'm thinking ''why would I talk to you about that. You're leaving me. What do you care. Why talk now about things that will happen when you're not here for me''. Why would I even go to sessions with you? I don't see the point in it because there are only 6-7 weeks left. I can't start something with you that I can't finish with you. And I've to start over with a new T.

This is all such a mess. Thank you for that.