I totally understand what you are saying Mookster. The whole trust thing has been big with me. That was a part of me that actually told me that my counselor was a THREAT. That really shook me up and I was really questioning why. I didn't feel a threat, but that part did. My parts are all about keeping the waters calm, so there is not any kind of explosion. Do what you have to do to keep the calm.

We were talking about the in session a while back, how I try so very hard to keep things calm. Pacify. Radar is always on. I gave him the example of being in a boat and the water being calm, no waves, and how that feels like a safe place. He made the statement that if it was him, he would rock the boat. That is his personality. And maybe one day, I can rock the boat and not feel the overwhelming need to keep the peace. I'm rambling.

Anyway, the part of me that saw my counselor as a threat, took me back to that moment in session, and shared it with me. That was really one of the first interactions I had, up to that point, with another part of me. It was very truthful and honest.

My counselor and I talked about it in the next session. He apologized for saying it and not being more understanding. That calmed the waters, so to speak, and it also opened the door for trust for that part of me.

I hope that encourages you, Mookster. I am encouraged by Plum90.

Quoting: In other words some protectors were just doing their jobs. Many of my experiences losing time or getting very foggy-minded in therapy turned out to be protectors testing, gauging and challenging the therapist. This was a necessary process.