Actually, you're right.
I need to get honest and face how damaging this therapy was to me. Yet, I still want to go back, its like a compulsion and like a battle ground. Like 'spiritual warfare', 'psychotherapy' is nothing to do with it. YET I want to go back. Its a deep conflict within me, they (she) would say that is the disorder, in internal conflict. Some of it is, some of it isnt.
I need to think and pray about next steps. Theres more to explain, I might come back to that and share it in a thread.
But, thanks, what you said was helpful.
river.