Jennifer, I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. I feel that before you get to deeply involved with the person you are with at this time and feel harmed in some manner. You need to be honest with yourself and talk to your therapist about how you are feeling at this time. Totally being unconcerned for yourself and meeting someone elese needs to escape your problems is a usual characteristic of trauma or PTSD. It is okay to feel like you want a relationship but it is not appropriate to feel that you need to be in a one sided or unhealthy relationship where you are giving 110% and expecting nothing in return for your affection toward another person. It is good to be in a relationship but EVERY relationship needs 2 people to be getting their emotional needs met and boundaries to make sure the relationship is healthy for both parties to be happy in the relationship. You should under NO circumstances give up your boundaries just to please someone else for any reason. I understand that you are weak at this time, but you are still a person that has emotional needs to be met and you should talk to your therapist before making this decision to be totally withdrawn in the relationship, and give all of yourself and not need your needs to be met as well. I hope things get better for you soon Jennifer. Take care. Soidhonia