Valentine's Day oh fun - not. Hopefully I'll make it through the day. You know I've never had that much luck at love - the trouble is if you don't get it you end up like me -a miserable mess. I've never felt normal and always some sort of subspecies when it comes to romance. So I'm walking around and I see all these couples laughing and looking so content - I hate them! So here I am sitting in restaurant by my self and I can only see the dark side of the moon. It's been a looooooong time since somebody actually looked at me with any sort of attachment and I'm all rotten inside. I don't even want to talk about my confidence level because it is buried deep under a sad history. Holidays are killers - Christmas, New Years and valentines are all poison. So why did I decide to write tonight, well I'm not feeling well and the hole is deep. I know I don't want to be alone but what are the options? Thanks