I've been out of hospital a couple of weeks. I can't say that anything has changed really. I still feel like I did before I went in. I am struggling...but at least I'm still going. I'm still trying. But I'm only trying because next week I have something to look forward to. After that, I'm not sure how I will be. Don't know how I can keep on going on. I am slowly destroying myself. Internally and externally. This has gone on way too long.