If you are having active suicidal ideation and impulses, go to the ER. They might make you a temp inpatient or let you go, depending on their judgement. But it could get you to medication sooner and above all else, it could save your life and keep you safe. And that's very important. Waiting might not be an option for you.

Doing that is scary. I've been through it, because I told my bf I was suicidal and planning and he reported me. I was taken to a clinic for assessment and couldn't stop crying. Everything leading up to that point was traumatic.I mean, they put me in the back of a police car and drove me there. It was horrifying. At least you would be driving yourself. They decided not to make me inpatient, because I was so scared I swore I wouldn't try anything and meant it. Complied with seeing a psychiatrist and he diagnosed me as bipolar. They immediately placed me on meds. Once you get over the shock of it all, it turns out okay. I promise. And it saved my life.