I'm having trouble navigating and getting to messages. I keep messing up. I'm just so messed up in myself right now and no one I know understands or is being there for me right now. I have tears pouring down my face. But I'm not crying. Silent tears and they just won't stop. I've tried everything to distract myself and I can't. Everyday is a different mood. I actually started to feel better but then yesterday happened and then today happened and now I'm terrified