Hello Sleeping Sacred Rose. I am sorry that you are struggling atthsi time with all of the emotional issues that you are facing at this time. I am glad that you are reaching out for the help that you need at this time. Your recovery will consist of taking one day at the time until things get better and more stable. Please have a crisis plan if you need help even if it is just to call a friend to talk to just to be able to release the anger and confusion. Take care of yourself. Soidhonia