Rose. Then you need someone else to help you during this time. It is not necessary to take phone calls if you feel safer not taking their calls at this time. You can then have time to do things in a more timely manner and get the support needed for you to be safe and not lured into something you can not handle alone. If you need help dealing with the situation then get the support you need from a friend or someone else you can trust to help you from getting into a situation you can not handle at this time. There are 3 good things to do to stay safe
STOP
THINK
LISTEN

Stop and before you make any decision to do anything that you feel is harmful or crosses your boundaries mentally or physically think of the consequeces and are you safe in handling the situation alone if not then take the time to call someone else for a better or more stable opinion that is trustworthy

Think about not picking up the phone or being available to put yourself in jeopardy where if you pick up the phone you may be in jeopardy physically or mentally by being alone with someone that you do not feel trustworthy being around alone or jeopardizes your boundaries for ANY reason.

Listen to your self and others where your boundaries are being crossed in some manner that is not respectable or
that will leave you confused or incapable of defending yourself mentally or physically.

Take care Rose again I am sorry that you are struggling with your issues at this time. Just try to take things one day at a timeone problem at the time and never feel that you have to suffer alone when there is help out there for you even if it is only in the support room in chat at Psych Central, or in calling your new therapist if you have a new therapist at this time. The time to get the ectra help is when it is needed and that is what therapists are for to help when you are in need. Sincerely. Soidhonia