I find family that don't have a mental illness don't really know how to respond when I am doing bad. I've basically given up on going to them when things get bad. I usually call my therapist and if things get too bad I text the crisis line. The number for the text crisis line is 741-741 you dial it up and send start as your message. They've gotten me out of some sticky situations in the past. If all that doesn't work I just go to the ER so I can be admitted to the psych ward for a few days while they tinker with my meds.

Getting control of bipolar takes a lot of hard work, including for most the right combo of meds. It sounds like you need to call your pdoc to see if you can get an adjustment. Do they have an emergency line? I know today is a holiday, so the office will probably be closed. Do you have a therapist that you could reach out to? maybe they'd give you some coping skills to use. If you don't have a therapist I highly recommend the book DBT for Bipolar. It has a lot of good coping techniques in it.

Things do get better. As you said you don't know what tomorrow holds, but tomorrow might be better than today. Even if you're better for one day that's an accomplishment. I tend not to think of the future because you never know what it has in store for you. Just take it one day at a time, if you need to do it hour by hour, or even minute by minute.