Well. Medications help me. Sometimes my psychiatrist talks to me for twenty minutes. They test these medications in order to sell them. I think there has to be some scientific backing behind them. Not that they're perfect, but that is nothing the psychiatrist says, nor is labeled on the boxes and bottles, that states there is a 100% guarantee they will work. There are studies that show there are deficiencies in the flow and exchange of neurotransmitters that are not present in people without these disorders. Maybe because I studied psychology in college and high school and have been a big supporter behind the field, I'm a bit biased. But I also know it isn't just medication that makes you better. You can't just take a pill and magically all your symptoms will disappear. That isn't how it works. You need therapy, to learn how to manage moods and emotions, how to cope with the stressers of life because stability is not a constant thing. Not even for people without a mental illness. Life will always throw a curve ball and its important to have the right coping skills to deal with them. I know there is no medication that will get rid of my PTSD, so I am doing EMDR to normalize the memories, and bring them to a different part of the brain where they won't effect me emotionally. There's a chance it won't work, but most people have a high success rate. I don't want to take medication forever either. But my first psychiatrist told me from day one that I might not have to be on meds forever anyway.

So what I'm saying, is that its a combination of medication and therapy, internal work, that really helps you recover and live a normal life. Don't let any psychiatrist tell you there is a miracle pill. Meds can have bad side effects. But sometimes the good out weighs the bad, and you have to decide what's more worth it. Being slightly more stable on a medication regime, means I'm having a slightly better life than I otherwise would be having.

But I do believe there is an imbalance in neurotransmitters because I feel science can prove it.

And now I'm done being the oddball here. I've really seen medications help people, when they find the right one. So I can't say they're the root of all evil and completely worthless. If I didn't believe in them, I wouldn't be taking the risk by consuming them everyday. They keep me from being washed away into psychotic symptoms. Right now on what I take, I am clear minded and high functioning. My current problems stem from emotional instability which can be treated with therapy, because there aren't ant medications specifically for BPD. The only other medication I want right now, is if I do have epilepsy (unless LamICTal can be used to treat it, I'll just stay on that), and something for ADD.