Crying has become something strange for me now. It happens unsuspectingly.

I shut down when my youngest son was sick and I didn't cry for years. I think this started because I had to be brave for him during all his hospital visits.
I had such a hard time and couldn't cry at all for a long long time.

Last year I cried when my oldest son was hospitalized but not in front of him or T, just in front of my husband in the middle of the night.

It took me a year before I cried in front of T which I did on the 2 sessions just prior to the last one. No big sobs, but big tears rolling down my face.

However, this week I cried my eyes out on the phone with my SIL. The tears seem to come leaking out now or I feel them at the edge of my eyes when I blink.



6 days till my next appointment
2 days till I can call