Excellent advice, Clare B and Soidhonia!

I will:

Stop, think and listen!!!

I have changed univeristies, thrown away my pager and started a new email account to try and be rid of him forever! I will now change my number as well!

When he rang, it caught me off guard - was actually shocked! When he was speaking, I felt I needed to go back for some strange reason, felt guilty, like I had betrayed his confidence! Thoughts and question race through my head - all confusion, angar and pain....

When my emotions are running high, what is rational seems to evade me....have compusions.....

thanks again, I know I'm ranting, but I feel safe to do so!

SSR