Hi Everyone,

Thank you so much for your replies and apologies for taking a while to get back to you. I have been surviving the situation, and it is not changing. Finally, after the project lead came into my work area yelling at me in a very public way in front of my employees, I realized that this might not all be about my mistakes.

This project is two years behind. I am the third person on this project in this position. The others have quit or been let go or some combination of that. I have never been allowed the respect of setting a proper deadline. Early on in the project I received an email from a former person in this position, in response to my query about finding some missing files, where he offered that while he had enjoyed working at the organization, that he had regretted ever getting involved with this project and that as far as he knew, anyone else who was involved felt the same way.

So I've decided that this may not all be about me screwing up, and that I need to push back and stand up for myself instead of beating myself up.