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Originally Posted by DesigningWoman
Thank you so much for posting this!
I have never heard this described so well and throughly. It answered a lot of my questions. I don't have alters but I have most of the rest of disassociation behaviors described. At 36, I have begun really dealing with the disassociation. I was always scared to tell anyone about it prior. I thought people would think me insane, lock me up, and throw away the key. Also they are really hard to put into words. I curl up inside my body and leave my brain stem behind to keep me functioning. because to many people they do sound crazy.
Now I have a therapist well versed in PTSD and sexual trauma survivors. I felt it was time to tell someone who might understand. She basically said it's a normal response to trauma. Time to start to working on it now. It's tough to leave behind though. It's a safety blanket I have been wrapped up in for decades.
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You are very welcome. I found it also very helpful. I try to dissociate every therapy session but my therapist is too good at watching/reading my body language and stops me or pulls me out of it. I do it most especially when we talk about the past or feelings that hurt.
I also dissociate a lot like at night, I did it at walmart and was one of the few times where I lost memory and 'woke up' in the handicap stall curled on the floor screaming "dont hurt me" and no clue how I got there; and also did once where I ended up 'waking up' on the railroad tracks and have no clue how i got there let alone out of my house but those are the only two times as an adult i did that. I can tell you times i did in the trauma but that would be, i think, TMI really.
Its good information I think and can be very helpful! Glad you got some help out of it!
