During the year that I was on Trileptal I couldn't cry. However, I am generally not very med compliant, so I would occasionally go on and off of it... and when I was off I would be able to cry again. I understand meds are supposed to be a tool, but when they are supressing emotions they can also be hindering some important stuff. I have two different types of depression. One is the sad depression in which I will cry all the time. The other is the disconnected depression in which I am just that... completely disconnected. I don't typically cry during this type of depression. I'm in the disconnected depression mode right now, only it's mixed with Ts absence so then I end up occasionally crying. One time I said to T, "Don't expect me to start bawling." And he said, "Well I might." I asked, "Why would you start crying?" He told me, "Because I can feel what you are feeling." Geez, I really miss that guy.