I don't feel like I have the strength anymore to deal with everyday situations without wanting to, or actually ending up in tears. I can't work out whether I'm low at the moment & that's the reason or whether I have just lost the ability to cope with the normal ups and downs of life that everyone has. When I cry it makes me feel so weak, not being able to just deal with things and get on with it. They're not necessarily major things that cause me to feel like this, just hiccups, the kids arguing or not doing what I've asked them to do, an email needing action that I wasn't expecting are examples.

I feel permanently distracted, like I can't give anything my full attention & I have so many ordinary things to do like go to the dentist & the opticians & order some photos. But I just can't seem to do them. I know this sounds ridiculous but when I do get 5 mins to call & make an appointment I still don't?! It's like I can't face it & yet then the next day I'm thinking to myself I really must get that done. Work is the same & I end up working right up to deadlines because I haven't managed to fit things in sooner.

The extra worry & stress I am causing myself is largely unnecessary. So why do I keep doing it? Why can't I get my act together? 18mths/2 yrs ago before the last depression hit I was super organised in every aspect of my life....but now??....I feel like I'm going mad. I feel a failure, I feel utterly at a loss.