Actually is was being here on PC that helped me accept it. So many good people here...I realized it really was OK to be BP. five yrs ago I was still insisting that the pdocs and Ts must have it wrong and really I just had MDD. I know, just MDD isn't just but that's how I saw it, being MDD was acceptable but BP meant crazy. I'm more stable now that I've been in years.

Thanks to everyone on the BP thread here at PC who ever shared the trials of being bipolar. I realized that, yeah others really have been though this and not just a few I'd met at the hospitals. People from all walks of life, with jobs without jobs, with partners and without, on meds and off meds. Thanks to this forum I was able to yes, I'm Bipolar.