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Old Feb 15, 2016, 08:11 PM
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Location: Michigan
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My BP never caused me to impulsively spend more than like $100 at a time (even though that adds up!) but it's made me ignorant when it comes to bills. More often in times of deep depression. There are times on and off when I was unmedicated and too ill to care or to see that I had to work. I would spend months drinking and stuffing bills in drawers when they came. I'd even stop getting the mail. A few times the mailman put an "unoccupied box" notice in my mailbox. I wouldn't care until the lights got turned off and I'd have to borrow money or take from my inheritance. Now I am grateful and lucky my mother left me money when she passed and I have invested towards things but honestly it's also a curse. And to make things worse, my bf (who isn't MI) is the same way. Head in the sand! Often our cable gets turned off inbetween paychecks ect.

Well I went back to work about 2 months ago after a deep depression and getting back on meds but it's a little too late. Among these bills that I hid away were my property taxes on my house. This will be the second time my house almost went into foreclosure. We are about to go into a payment plan with the county treasury but our current taxes must be paid. Big problem. We have nothing saved. We don't make much money as it is. We are going to have to ask family for help. Who knows if they even will. I blame my own self. The other night I broke down to my dad (who is aware of our situation) and told him we are also behind on condo fees. I cried like a little baby. Even though it felt good to get it out, it doesn't fix things.

I blame myself, my depression, my carelessness, my BP and probably even my BPD. I have a job now and I'm playing catch up. But the money goes as fast as it comes.

Anyone else been affected by their BP and their poor financial choices?

Trileptal 600mg BID
Buspar 45mg
Seroquel 150-300mg for sleep
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvanse 70mg
Risperdal 4-6mg PRN

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