Dear T,

Today, someone posted on Twitter, "Find your passion- and jump."

It hurts.
I have been looking for help with my depression and direction all my life.
People struggle all the time. I didn't think getting help should be that hard.

I still could have found direction and done something with my life in my 30's and 40's....if I had found the right help.
Abusive Pdoc1 took that away from me. Abusive Pdoc2 took that away from me.
I didn't realize it was futile to look for help in (where I lived.)

I was messed up when Pdoc1 found me...then he moved. Pdoc2 replaced him. By then, I was very messed up. I was circling the drain.

Then he did what he did.

GoodPrevT found me. And I didn't die. We tackled depression and all the issues that Pdoc1 and Pdoc2 caused.

Now I'm old, sick, depressed, battling demons- trying to survive day by day, really.

Too late to jump.