Thank you finestitcher, ww, stefano & Soidhona, for your support.

I am on meds, but I need therapy. I was ill & missed my apt w/ my pdoc & 1st appt w/ a therapist last week....I rebooked an appt w/ my pdoc for late Sept -- that was the earliest. I think I need my meds adjusted.

I have a few triggers of stressful (personal) events that happened to me this summer. They really had a huge impact on my self-esteem (negative). I don't know how to increase my s-e. I've tried doing sports, which is what I know & what I am actually decent @, but it really hasn't helped. I feel so lost, depressed & helpless. And blah.

I'm trying my best to be there for my Mom. I got my arse out of bed today which was the hardest thing -- and went and saw her. I will keep trying for her, but I can feel myself slipping badly. It's truly terrifying.