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Old Feb 15, 2016, 10:19 PM
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Originally Posted by BlueInanna View Post
I'm in tears about the puzzle piece, that is so cool. Effexor is ok for some bp, but makes some of us manic. Work with the therapist - mood disorder can totally make me feel like different people and it sucks, it's like a crisis of my soul and which mood is the real me. But that's not multiple personality disorder. What a support group like here & therapy (and a lot of coping tools like meditation, journaling, walking) can help with is sorting out these pieces, putting them together, letting go of some, seeing the big picture, seeing that there's always more to the whole picture, etc etc. seeing that it's not all black or white, challenging the thoughts that generate the emotions that generate the responses we could give based on our mood. Hypo/mania can be so torturous for me because when my mind won't stop I can barely calm down enough to even sort out one thought if you know what I mean.
I'm really glad you're moms seeing you & sounds very supportive. A walk is really sound advice. You sound a lot better, but be ready for it to likely go up and down some more. Little steps.
And rxqueen I'm in tears over hearing your brother is being there for you. Even just a little understanding and kindness means the world while we are in crisis.
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I totally understand what you are saying. It makes perfect sense to me. Worded way better than I've been able to. I do feel so much better. I guess I'm scared of losing this feeling. I'm feeling whole for the first time I can remember. I'm actually able to smile and talk without the anxiety or my mind wandering off (ok it's still kinda doing it) but I'm so glad you understood the puzzle. I cried too. And smiled the first real heartfelt smile in so long. My mom usually understands but she's got a lot on her plate lately and she also has her own diagnoses. I don't feel like I'm all better I just feel like I finally have me so let's glue this puzzle together and not scatter all over the place, with missing pieces that I have to find. Idk maybe it's just the first piece but the most important one. I don't want to lose it. To not have the terrible pain in my neck and the tense shoulders for the first time I think ever.

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