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Originally Posted by rainbow8
Lately my T has been commenting on whether I'm present in the session or not. Last week she said the way I was sitting looked like I wasn't present. I was kind of slouching but I think I always sit like that. She had me sit up and make sure my feet were on the floor.
The week before when I was going on about my week, she said it seemed like I wasn't present, and if I'm not present, I don't feel connected to her. She wanted me to look around the room, then at her, and tell her how I feel.
I like to feel connected to her but at the same time, her commenting on my being present or not, makes me feel afraid, like I want to hide from her. Every session she asks me if she's sitting where I want her to be. Is her chair too close or too far.
I don't think I dissociate but I sort of check out and avoid eye contact sometimes. I feel very close to my T now, so I'm not sure why I still do this. Why can't I stay totally present with her? I can be present when I'm talking with her about hard stuff but when she wants me to look at her and asks how I feel, I get scared. I think the intimacy is what makes me panic.
Does anyone else's T concentrate on your being in the present with them?
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hi rainbow,
my therapist knows that im in the present moment.she can tell by looking at my posture when im sitting down on the couch facing her . she knows that im in the present cuz we always do an exercise to help me to come back to the present moment after doing dual awareness and she did an exercise last week with me in session about does it feel to be a productive member of society contributing . its a way that your therapist is helping you to focus on was is around you . its like a visualization and guided imagery exercises that will help you to deal w difficult emotions and thoughts .
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